Lately I've been a little busy. Okay, really busy. I feel like I'm barely keeping up with everything, constantly at odds with some portion or another of my life. Work has been crazy. I have an internship that I love, but it keeps me very busy as well. In whatever spare time I can find I work out, just because that helps me
de-stress and makes me happy. And then at the end of every day I'm just exhausted, but I never have time to get enough sleep. I've been trying to spend time with family and friends, but that hasn't been happening nearly as much as I'd like. I read somewhere (or a million different places) that your twenties are for flailing, for making mistakes, and for figuring out who you are. If that's true then apparently I am right on track.
Lately I've also been on the job hunt. I've had this longing to move to Chicago for years. Since high school in fact. I looked at colleges in Chicago, but the private school I wanted to attend ended up being too expensive and I fell back on the University of Minnesota. I had a lovely time there, but now that I've finished my undergrad this feeling has come back again. I want to move to Chicago. I've found over the years that I learn and grow much more when I'm in a new environment. I feel like life in Minneapolis has become a little stagnant and a little uninspired. So in the rest of my spare time (ha!) I've been searching for jobs in Chicago.
Then there's this little blog, which I have been neglecting much more than I like to think about. I either don't have time to write, or when I do have time, I have no energy to compose a post inspiring or coherent enough to publish. To be honest, I've sometimes wondered whether or not I should keep daydreamer. I know I should, and I will, because I love being a part of this wonderful community of inspiring people. And when I do have time and energy to write, it's so much fun, and so refreshing to discuss the things that inspire me and the topics that are important to me.
Erin Gates wrote a post earlier this week on being in your thirties. Erin's post focused on the decision to have children and the judgement and difficulties that often come with the fact that she doesn't have any kids yet at age 33. She is such an inspiration and has an amazing career, but I have a feeling that if Erin wrote a post on being in your twenties when she was 23, she would have said she was flailing a bit, too. I guess every decade has brand new challenges that come along with it. And so far my twenties have been a mix of confusion and inspiration as I try to figure out my life.
Please know that I don't mean to complain. I realize I have so many things to be thankful for and I am always counting my blessings. But honesty is the best policy when it comes to blogging, and lately I've been a little stressed. So bear with me if you will. Posts may be a little sporadic for the time being, but I'll still be here. You guys are the best.
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I agree that honesty is the best policy in terms of blogging. It's refreshing to read other blogs who post about real things and don't sugar-coat everything to sound perfect!
ReplyDeleteI feel overwhelmed with my job and blog sometimes, too. And I'm in a long-distance relationship and battle with my finances (hello student loan bills that are $800 a month!) And let's not even get started on the job market- it's rough! I tell myself things will fall into place when it is right. Sometimes it just takes time :)
Jackie, I'm right there with you. This is pretty much exactly how I feel. I even mentioned as much on my blog recently- that I've been feeling a little lost in life in general and with the blog as well.
ReplyDeleteIt's not easy figuring it out and as much as I don't particularly like this phase, I don't think you can rush it either.
This is SO true, "honesty is the best policy when it comes to blogging." I wish I could offer words of advice but all I can say is hang in there and I'll definitely still be here too :)
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I COMPLETELY understand. I don't blog NEARLY as much as you do so I commend you for that! It's tough for us working girls to do it all - to hold a job, maintain relationships, keep up the home, spend a little time at the gym, and then still have time to blog at the end of it all? Not very often for me! I've decided that blogging has to be the last priority for me, after things like cleaning the house and working out. If I never develop a great blog, so be it.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes, my twenties have been all about change and figuring things out. I'm almost done with them now, and I feel like I'm just FINALLY getting into a settled rhythm! It's hard, but hang in there and don't forget to have fun every once in a while! This is the time for change and figuring stuff out, but the more you figure out, the more it seems to tie you down. So do wild crazy stuff now!
Honesty is always the best policy, lady! I'm so glad you shared where you're at in life. If you come to Chicago we can be friends in real life! How cool would that be?! Sending good vibes your way my dear!!
ReplyDeleteI love your blog so much, and appreciate that you continue to post when you can, even amid the endless to do list that seems to dominate your busy life. I hope you find your dream job in Chicago, and more time for everything :) I've definitely done my fair share of failing in my twenties, and probably more than I should have, but I've learned so much from everything, especially those rough patches. I love that you work out whenever you have time too--that's my favorite stress reliever. There's not too much a long run can't make you feel better about. Keep writing, when you can, and don't ever stress it. We'll still be here, too :)
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